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SO CONFUSED

Submitted By: avi
Date: January 21

alright so heres my story..im 19 and am in college. i have a close group of friends here. i’ve known for a long time that i was at least bisexual..if not full on lesbian. any who i’m pretty open about it now and my mom even knows. so a girl in my close group of friends knew this about me for about a week or two before she personally came on to me. she ended up staying in my bed one night and we were cuddling…the situation was pretty intense and we both knew that each other wasnt asleep. eventually she said “im going to jump your bones.” and that was all she had to say…we just made out that night. but every night after that and between every class or basically whenever we could we were together..and if we werent we were texting. she sent me some pretty interesting texts..that ranged from “come over now” to music lyrics about how i had her feeling like shes never felt before..and some other stuff but thats a little too much to say. she was the first girl i have ever been with sober and repetitively. at first i questioned her because i thought there was no way she had never done this before because she was moving faster than me..i was really nervous at first. she answered me by saying that she really had never done anything like this before and that she wasnt into girls..that she was just into me. this went on for about two weeks before she freaked out after smoking weed…she said that she just “tripped” and can not do this anymore but still wants to be my best friend. I went thru a series of episodes of being ok with it..to completely freaking out and telling her i couldnt do that because i dont see a friend when i see her..i see much more. now we arent even on speaking terms because she got mad that I confided in a friend about our situation because I was going absolutely nuts..I dont understand her at all…she literally was all over it like crazy. the only thing i can guess is that shes just not comfortable with liking girls…because oh yeah also this was a complete secret from everyone…she didnt want me telling anyone so i didnt…which made it kinda hot..not gonna lie…but that probably should have been a tip off from the start right? or is it possible that shes a straight girl? how could a straight girl be with a girl literally every night for 2 weeks…...there were other things too that happened that make me question her...one night after we had been together all night in her bed and were on the verge of sleep cuddling she whispered to me, “I love you”. also whenever I tried to ask her why or what happened she would go into lockdown mode she wouldn’t look at me or give me a straight answer...she would mumble...or even one time she told me to shut up when I told her “hey I really liked you..did you like me?”....idk if anyone has an answer for this or an opinion but I would really appreciate it.

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