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What do I do?

Submitted By: Aaron
Date: March 14

Hey,
During this past summer I went away from home to take some courses at a close university. There, I met up with brother. His roomate was really cute and one night I was deciding where I wanted to sleep and he said that I could sleep on his bed with him if I wanted. I am NOT openly gay or bisexual or whatever I am (I'm not worried about labels or anything). Neither is he. While we were laying there he asked me if I had ever kissed another guy before and I told him I hadn't. One thing led to another and we ended up making out and going from there... That night was one of the most awesome nights of my life and his too, so he told me. Since I was staying in the dorms (I only stayed over on weekends) I saw him every now and then. We would meet up in different places to kiss and talk and go to lunch. He would come visit me at work several times and make eyes at me when others weren't looking. After a while, we began to tell each other that we loved each other. It was really fast but I really felt like I did love him. After about two weeks, he decided to call it quits and let me go in a nice but rude way and I cried. I didn't mean to get so attached to him, I just really liked being around him and he made me happy and I could tell that he was really happy with finally being able to show his true self to someone. For some time, we didn't really talk much and I tried to get closer to him but it didn't work. After a while he decided that our whole relationship was just a physical thing and that he didn't mean any of the things he said to me. It really hurt. Anyways, we began to do things again off and on but never did we kiss or talk about loving each other again. When it was time for me to return back to high school, I started visiting on the weekends. When we had all gone to bed I would sneak into his room when my brother had gone to bed and we would mess around. This happened at least every other weekend. But it really seems like he's beginning to ignore me. When I hang out with him and all my other friends from that town he doesn't make eye contact or talk to me directly. Only when we are drunk does he gets a chance to make eyes at me. None of our other friends know about our past relationship and there isn't anyone I can talk to. So, my question is "What do I do?" I don't know if he's just using me for his satisfaction or if he's really into me still. I would like to say that he is, but I'm not sure after this past weekend. When I went to lay down on his bed he told me he was really tired and hadn't got much sleep the night before... :) Is he just using me or does he really care and just not want to show it? I was considering going to the same college he is but I'm not too sure of that anymore... Is that a wise choice? Will he ever open up to me again?

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