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Am I being punished?

Submitted By: Preston
Date: January 15

I have always thought that I was/am being punished simply because I live in Mississippi. Believe me (I am sure you will), it is NO picnic for a homosexual. I was thinking about moving out of the state, I am just not sure where I should go. Maybe you could help me out with a location after you have read the rest of this. On top of that, in early June, 2001, I was raped. The guy was a friend of mine at the time. He was about to leave the state, so I tried to spend as much time with him as possible. He came over to my apartment strung out on coke. To spare the details and to keep from rehashing it, basically, I ended up being pinned to the floor and well...Anyway, I didn't go to the police or anything at the time mainly because I was ashamed and felt like I should have been able to have somehow stopped it. I found out on August 22 that I am HIV+. I know that he is the one who gave it to me. I am 20 years old and feel like my life has already started to go downhill. I know I am sort of rambling, but I do have some questions and a point to dragging all of this out. Is it, in fact, too late for me to take any kind of legal actions against him? How am I supposed to cope with being positive? Do I ever stand a chance of finding a guy who will love me unconditionally now that I am a modern day leper of sorts? And am I, in fact, being punished for something I have done? Sorry to have bothered you. I am just tired and in desperate need of answers.

Questions In This Thread

• Am I being punished?
  Preston -- January 15
  • You're not being punished!
    Joey -- January 16

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