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Petrified and Jittery

Submitted By: Matteo
Date: August 5

Hello,

I am 18 years old and it's been about 4 years since I "figured out" I have liked men. I have not come out to anyone, although my best friend has a very good idea that I am bisexual or gay. I am not sure what I am right now, but that doesn't matter too much to me. I know I like men and women so we can just presume that I am bisexual. In any event, I have never had an experience with a man before. The thing that bothers me the most is that I know I would like to and I have had many opportunities. I've been almost picked up on the street, in school...but have always refused. Part of the reason is because I am a little freaked out by getting picked up on the street, man or woman. Basically, my problem is that I do want to have an experience with a man but have prevented myself out of nervousness. For example, I heard about Kurfew from a random person that asked me for a cigarette on the street. I went earlier this week and I got there and was freaked out. I was dressed a little too nicely and I never really travel past Avenue of the Americas, even though that's kind of sad. So, I thought it was kind of remote and I also saw a lot of people that looked older...taller...etc. So, I just turned back and went home. I was not disappointed with myself but I did kick myself in the ass because I think I could have had fun. I think I am nervous and also afraid of what lies where I yearn to be...and if the people were friendly there...or if I would just sit alone in the corner. I am not American and I just moved here from Italy, but I've been around Americans all my life. Perhaps it's the way clubs here work in comparison to Italy. In any event, I was hoping if you could give me some advice. Thanks.

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