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Why am I sleeping with my straight best freind?

Submitted By: Cheydsa Wrecked
Date: December 20

Okay, here we go-I've been in this situation for what seems like forever now, and I need some heavy advice. My best friend and I have known each other for 5 years. He's straight (or so he says). When we first met, I had unrequited lust that deepened into a really comfortable friendship that is very valuable to me. We slept together once after 2 years of hanging out, and the next month he moved away to Florida. When I visited him, each time we would end up hanging out and messing around the entire time- like it was no big deal. After a couple of years he moved back here and we messed around for the first week he was back. Then he got into a relationship with one of my girl-freinds. By mutual agreement, we stopped- but I was emotionally bruised. I shouldn't have been, I knew that it was not a viable relationship between us. He didn't hang out as much and I never really saw him very much. Then they broke up like 3 months later. Boom, back in my bed and like nothing ever happened we were the happy gay couple that wasn't a couple (and he's still straight). Of course, another girlfriend, and hands off, back in the box, we're just best friends that used to mess around. 2 months later, girl on the rocks, and I'm getting rocks off. Sensing the pattern? Each time I get emotionally attached a little more than is healthy, and then another girl comes in. Now, he has a girlfriend I really like. She would be wonderful to hang out with, and I have the feeling that she would be one of those people to know for life. She's also perfect for my best friend. One problem. Last week, he and I got trashed at a party, came home, and played till dawn. Then this past weekend, we were going to see Psycho Beach Party at the theatre, when he changed his mind and wanted to go get some more beer and stop at the adult video store. Why? He thought it would be funny to get the movie with my ex-boyfriend in it. Okay, sure. Got the beer, got the movie, and he got a toy- the kind that vibrate. Went home, watched the movie, etc. All this week he's been with his girlfreind and staying at her house. I've been in emotional loops and squiggles for the past 72 hours. When I get upset, he just acts like its a mood swing. What am I going to do? I don't want to force him out, if he is gay (which I don't know). What if he just likes to get off? And I don't feel comfortable with him cheating on his girlfriend, its unfair to her- and that also means he could never be faithful to me. I feel like total s**t. I can't look her in the face without getting mad, guilty, and jealous. We have another 2 months on the lease, and were going to keep living together. But now I don't know. What's your advice?

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• Why am I sleeping with my straight best freind?
  Cheydsa Wrecked -- December 20
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